How often are we told that we can’t be Christian or at least Christian enough because we suffer from anxiety and depression? How often do people judge our relationship with Jesus because we have panic attacks?
I have been a Christian since I was ten years old. I didn’t start suffering from anxiety until a few years later. My relationship with Jesus has continually grown from the day I accepted Him into my heart. I’m not saying I haven’t been stagnate at times or even really distant from God, but growth has always been happening.
Anxiety, Depression, and any other mental illnesses are the way the brain functions. Accepting Jesus into your heart isn’t likely to immediately take away all anxieties and worries. It’s not going to end all the triggers and the trauma. The world around you isn’t going to change.
But now, you have Jesus. You have someone you know that loves and strives to be in relationship with you. You have someone who is walking along this path called life with you. There is hope in the Gospel message. There is hope in Jesus.
Eventually this relationship with Jesus may cause you to start to see yourself as worthy. This relationship may cause you to see the love and light in the people around you. This relationship may end a life long struggle with anxiety.
But… it may not. You may know these truths: that your loved, that your worthy, that you are a child of God, that God chose you. But it may not calm the self-critic in you. In fact, you may even experience a time where your anxiety gets worse.
If God loves me so much why can’t (enter name here) love me? If I’m so worthy, why can’t I do anything right?
And it’s OKAY. It’s okay to fall into the trap of anxiety and depression from time to time. It is okay to have panic attacks and still get triggered. Just don’t stay their. Begin to slowly hand over things to Jesus.
A relationship with God can still be a trust issue for some people and God knows that. He doesn’t leave us nor forsake us. Soon we will be able to trust God with the burdens we carry. But it doesn’t happen overnight.
Don’t feel like you aren’t doing something right because you still have panic attacks or are still suffering from anxiety and Depression. Because you are taking the next right step, you are trusting in a God that loves you for who you are not who He wants you to be!
Be true to yourself!
© 2019 Kiersten Smeal